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“How many times will I bring her back to life before I understand what gone means.” Oh how I feel this quote so much.

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Glad the treasures are still inspiring you Margaux

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I totally get that about your mom. My mom died in June of 2021 and I still see the "ghosts". Older ladies that look so much like her when I catch a glimpse of them out of the corner of my eye in the grocery store. And then i do a double take and realize there are some differences, but still so similar that it is distracting.

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I haven't had the waking visual experience. That must be something other, Alice:(

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It is. It always catches me off guard.

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That passage really speaks to me, too! I’m not sure I’ve ever really finished anything. Something happens midway

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Your houses in my list! Spelled your name wrong 😕

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It’s ok everybody does! I was delighted to see it!

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New List: Things I Have Stolen:

1) My brother’s Eagle Scout pin. Because I love eagles and the color gold. He still doesn’t know I have it.

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!!! When did you steal it?

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Back in 1975, shortly after he “borrowed” my bike without asking me and it got stolen. It still makes me laugh. I’m laughing now. I should add this to my Things that Make Me a Monster list.

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“I’ve always been rising out of destruction.” The best place to be— never stop!

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I always feel so haunted when someone I've lost lingers in my heart for days.

When I lost a student I was particularly close to just a little bit after she graduated, the pastor enlisted me to help with a project where he gave out these aquarium stones to the attenders of her service. He called them beads, so I thought I'd string mine on a necklace to keep with me, and when it turned out to be stones, I ordered a bracelet from Etsy--one of those you see people who stack. They grew to others I'd lost over time, so whenever I have that dream, I wear the bracelet of the person, or whenever I'm missing them especially. I wear Sammy's a lot, because I'm still teaching and still want to do my best in her honor. My own mother is sick, but we still have some time. I'm not sure what's going to happen when she's gone--it will be awfully complicated, but inevitable for everyone, one day.

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